You can't see it, but I know that it's anger

[twicketface]

Day 4 of No Soda Month is going pretty well. I made a slight consession (ha!) that I can have one can per week, but will be saving up my four cans for Poker Day, which is the 15th. The taste of Dr. Pepper and smell of grimy quarters go together quite nicely. Planning on two cans at the most, but when I let my hair down anything can happen.

Why is it everytime my boss goes on vacation, everything falls apart? I've got about 10 calls to return, angry managers with me because I'm not available at their every beck and call and the weight of the convention dangling precariously above my head.

And somehow, I'm remaining calm. Instead of screaming when I got into the sanctuary that is my car last night, I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. My heart rate remained steady and I smiled. As Julie told me, it's all temporary anyway. Do I want to look back on my life as someone who was so fragile he couldn't handle a little stress, someone who couldn't deal with the globs of shit that Life sometimes heaves at you (and at other times, misses you and hits your passenger side door)? I should absorb this stress somehow and learn from it. Breathe it in and use it to make me stronger.

Made Orange Julius for the first time in a long time last night, as we were out of mangos. It really hit the spot. Orange Julius and crackers make a good snack.

Tonight is cribbage with Terry after a week off (re: Shreya's visit) last week. Time to get things back on track. I've got a list of CDs that I'd love to have in my collection.

I think it's time for another road trip.

Comments

[blue-sunshine.livejournal.com]

I'm ashamed that I laughed at the "concession" pun.

How ya' feelin'???

--d

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[twicketface.livejournal.com]

Mucho better. A slight (and I mean slight) cough but been sleeping much better and feeling better at the YMCA (lifting more, prolonged amounts on treadmill), etc.

What's the good word down by you?