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Mar. 29th, 2020 01:28 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
twicketfaceI'm so grateful to be dealing with this pandemic with a 13 year old, who can rationalize things extremely well. I've so many friends with three or four year-olds that seem to be bouncing off the walls. Nate's routine is to wake up, have breakfast, finish his school work online before lunch and then read/LEGO/video game while I finish my work day. He can still have violin lessons online and has a karate workout video he can use. Hopefully the rain we've had the last week plus will move on soon so we can both get outside more often. We're well stocked with microwave popcorn and root beer.
I've used Instacart (for Costco) and online shopping (for my local grocery store) for the first time and felt like an asshole (not at all for the first time) both times. I can rationalize that my orders are giving employees work to do and yet feels very privileged and lazy for hiring a short-term servant. I tip well, give top ratings, thank them directly, etc., but it still feels dirty. I'm trying to eat out regularly and rotate between local restaurants for take-out.
I'm continuing to read more physical books, which has been nice. I'm burning energy cleaning neglected pockets of my house. Consistent sleep has been rare, but that's not exactly new.
I've used Instacart (for Costco) and online shopping (for my local grocery store) for the first time and felt like an asshole (not at all for the first time) both times. I can rationalize that my orders are giving employees work to do and yet feels very privileged and lazy for hiring a short-term servant. I tip well, give top ratings, thank them directly, etc., but it still feels dirty. I'm trying to eat out regularly and rotate between local restaurants for take-out.
I'm continuing to read more physical books, which has been nice. I'm burning energy cleaning neglected pockets of my house. Consistent sleep has been rare, but that's not exactly new.
The park's tennis courts are still closed (and likely will be for a while since it's still cold here), but I didn't entertain the possibility of the nets not being put up to keep people away. I'm all for doing whatever to reduce the spread but having a main source of stress relief off the table for the foreseeable future is tough.
My mood seems better this week as things seem to be sinking in better. I'm not marinating in doom as much, which is good. Maybe I'm getting better overall since I can recognize a change in mood with some distance from it.
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Date: 2020-03-29 09:06 pm (UTC)Glad that your mood is stable. I'm okay for now but worry about what's ahead.
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Date: 2020-03-30 12:38 am (UTC)I'm glad you're okay and yes, it's going to get plenty worse before it starts to significantly get better.