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Argh. Just as I am starting to get back into a decent (and restful) sleep pattern, crap happens at work that makes me consider walking into my boss's (the one that rhymes with bitch) office, pulling my pants down and throwing my own feces at her. Rational, schmational.
First, she goes off to a meeting with another VP and tells me that she is expecting a call from our president. Sure enough, he calls. I go to their meeting room and let her know this. She asks me where he (the president) is calling from. I say (because nothing has been indicated otherwise) "His office.?" She laughs and says something to the effect of "No, he's in New York".
Ok, what?
Why ask me a question (in front of a co-worker) that makes me look like an idiot? She brushed it off and said she was "just teasing" as we were walking back to our department, but I was pissed off. I refuse to let it be a reflection on me that she can't give clear directions. I'd call her stupid, but she's really not. She just has little common sense and is so disorganized that I become her "special helper" to fix all the stuff she was too out of it to be on top of in the first place.
Secondly, I was taking my new boss (the nice one that I really like and wish we could both quit and start our own company) around for introductions, which was supposed to be done by my boss (the one that rhymes with bitch). I introduce her to someone working in our Web department and I say something to the effect of "This is ___ and she works in the Web department" when ___ corrects me and says that the Web and IT departments are merging, effective tomorrow.
So, now it appears that I'm completely oblivious to the workings of the organization where I work, and being in Human Resources is supposed to be the main area for information and knowing things before the general public. And it is my boss's (the one that rhymes with bitch) duty to spread this information to the rest of our department before it goes out to all staff members because that way when someone comes by and and says "What's this I hear about _______" I can avoid catching flies with my mouth because I'm out of the loop.
Working here is so mentally draining and it's not even the work, it's the politics. It's having to deal with other people's ego trips and territoriality and shortcomings. I like most of my job duties, like most of the people I work with and like what the company stands for. It's just so difficult because I feel like I've been left to drift on my own with direction or mentoring to make this job worth my time.
I can cope with the fact that I need to exchange time and labor for money. I can understand that while it is not what I want, it's what I have to do and I can accept that. I just wish that making a change for the better (going back to school, accepting another job) wouldn't be so directly tied to my financial status (student loans, lower wages).
Plus my personal email doesn't work and I have a feeling that messages I should have received have not gotten through. I'm glad I made the switch to a "private" email address, but I would not have chosen the one I did in hindsight.
I need a hug.
First, she goes off to a meeting with another VP and tells me that she is expecting a call from our president. Sure enough, he calls. I go to their meeting room and let her know this. She asks me where he (the president) is calling from. I say (because nothing has been indicated otherwise) "His office.?" She laughs and says something to the effect of "No, he's in New York".
Ok, what?
Why ask me a question (in front of a co-worker) that makes me look like an idiot? She brushed it off and said she was "just teasing" as we were walking back to our department, but I was pissed off. I refuse to let it be a reflection on me that she can't give clear directions. I'd call her stupid, but she's really not. She just has little common sense and is so disorganized that I become her "special helper" to fix all the stuff she was too out of it to be on top of in the first place.
Secondly, I was taking my new boss (the nice one that I really like and wish we could both quit and start our own company) around for introductions, which was supposed to be done by my boss (the one that rhymes with bitch). I introduce her to someone working in our Web department and I say something to the effect of "This is ___ and she works in the Web department" when ___ corrects me and says that the Web and IT departments are merging, effective tomorrow.
So, now it appears that I'm completely oblivious to the workings of the organization where I work, and being in Human Resources is supposed to be the main area for information and knowing things before the general public. And it is my boss's (the one that rhymes with bitch) duty to spread this information to the rest of our department before it goes out to all staff members because that way when someone comes by and and says "What's this I hear about _______" I can avoid catching flies with my mouth because I'm out of the loop.
Working here is so mentally draining and it's not even the work, it's the politics. It's having to deal with other people's ego trips and territoriality and shortcomings. I like most of my job duties, like most of the people I work with and like what the company stands for. It's just so difficult because I feel like I've been left to drift on my own with direction or mentoring to make this job worth my time.
I can cope with the fact that I need to exchange time and labor for money. I can understand that while it is not what I want, it's what I have to do and I can accept that. I just wish that making a change for the better (going back to school, accepting another job) wouldn't be so directly tied to my financial status (student loans, lower wages).
Plus my personal email doesn't work and I have a feeling that messages I should have received have not gotten through. I'm glad I made the switch to a "private" email address, but I would not have chosen the one I did in hindsight.
I need a hug.
