You never get it back, so what’s the point in killing time? -face to face

[twicketface]

Pretty much sums up how I’ve been feeling lately. How can I continue to go on completely drained of motivation? I’m such a slug and am realizing how truly lazy I am. Is realization the first step towards resolution? I sure hope so. It’s frustrating to not be able to accurately articulate what I’m feeling without sounding like a whiner. Maybe it’s all of the gloomy weather we’ve had lately, but I doubt it. When I examine parts of my life, I can’t find one thing that is making me unhappy, so it must be a combination of things. Sigh.

I think a large part of it is that I’m frustrated with society and how difficult it has been for me to make changes in my life. At times, it seems like a battle that can’t be won. We are a diseased society and very few people seem interested in taking steps towards a cure. I see myself less and less as working towards the solution and more likely to pull the covers over my head and join the masses of apathy.

Maybe I should just chalk it up to lack of sleep.

Random thoughts of the day:
I could really, really, really go for a steaming bowl of cream of broccoli soup right about now. I’m going out to lunch with Eric, so maybe I’ll get lucky. With the soup, I mean.

I think I’m going to jack up my 403(b) contributions so I can retire around age 30. Ok, maybe 35 but no later than that!

I also think I’m getting sick, which could account for my mood.

Tonight I’m going to start meditating to see if that helps. I’ve always got 45 things on my mind, so maybe that will help me refocus and calm down a bit.

Comments

[reject.livejournal.com]

don't worry about sounding like your whining.

whining can help, and it's just as valid as all those other kinds of communication ~_O

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[twicketface.livejournal.com]

Thanks. My life takes on a much better feel when I can breathe from both nostrils. I'm a headache away from feeling better. Should have a quiet weekend, which will help too.