I want a new mistake

[twicketface]

Last night I had a wonderful phone conversation with Carrie A. She called after a few weeks of phone tag and missing each other. Marie and I each got to talk with her and get caught up on each other’s lives. We started talking about mutual friends and how unfortunate it is that some people seem to have forgotten their friends.

I probably rant about relationships more than anything (save my job hunt), but only because they are so important to me. I was spoiled in college because I went with two (eventually four) very close friends and we formed a group rather easily with new people. By the end of my first year, it felt like this was the group I would relate with the rest of my life. That foolish notion that people will make an effort to keep in touch.

I’ve got very high standards when it comes to friends and I know that sometimes leads to disappointment on my end. Marie and I are, without patting ourselves on the back, the ones that keep the group together. And I never thought that it would come to a point where mutual friends of ours wouldn’t continue to be friends. That foolish notion that when we grew up we would all live in the same city, on the same block and have our kids play together slowly evaporated into wishful thinking.

I’ve teetered back and forth for a long time between taking the high road and responsibility of being the contactor and throwing in the towel and moving on. I have a hard time giving up on people; it’s not in my nature. I just get weary of the self-imagined excuse of they’re probably busy…. I don’t know how much longer I can deceive myself.

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I also got a call from jonnyv last night about a concert in April in Appleton. Ben Folds with Tegan and Sarah opening up. Hell yes.

I hope that Marie and I can find a house in late spring/early summer. I totally want to have a summer party and get the gang back together. Make plans to rent a pavilion in the park and have a cook out or something. Would be nice if we could house those out-of-towners. One thing at a time.

I got paid again today. Making 20% more while putting in roughly the same hours is a welcome change. I hope it means we can get our house that much sooner. I’m going to bust out a budget or financial plan of some sort this weekend as well as get my proverbial shit together about my investments and such.

Hope everyone is having a good Valentine’s Day. You know I’ll always love you.

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Totally. You bring the potato salad. ;)