There's just not that many crosses I can bear

[twicketface]

The Media Tower is ours. Marie and I went to Office Max and returned home to put it together while watching the taped episode of SNL. Did Update seem really short to anyone else? I thought Matt Damon was good, but overall the show seemed flat. I miss Will already.

Anyway, it now proudly sits in our living room, just waiting for me to fill it up. I'm going to see if Terry wants my old tower, as it is adorned with the HnN bumper sticker that only he would truly appreciate.

I was outsmarted by the vending machine this morning. Humbling, to say the least.

Tonight, I'm treating myself to pizza from Pizza Barn. It's the pizza place inside the grocery store across town. Well worth the drive. Then, Terry is coming over for some cribbage and hijinks.

I'm currently reading The Four Agreements, which is rather interesting. I don't think that the agreements are possible to all attain, but something to strive for. I think "Be impeccible with your word" is the one I need to continue to work on. Maybe as early as this weekend.

I dropped Marie off this morning at work; she'll be in Chicago until Friday night. It always feels weird to have the place to myself.

And I think flannel sheets will be the solution to our problems. Marie also has an extra blanket to keep warm too. It would be easier if I could sleep like Marie does; able to fall asleep in a heartbeat. I'm a tosser and turner and it takes me a while to get comfortable. I think all thee who offered suggestions.

Incidentially, does anyone know why garbage bags are measured in gallons?

I've discovered something about myself lately. I need a lot of ego-stroking in order to be in a good mood or to feel liked. Not all out praise, even something so small as an email asking how I am or a nice letter in the mail. I think the reason I give so much of myself (keeping in touch with people, organizing activities, etc) is that I want it in return too. I figure the more I give, the more I'll get in return. It has gone both ways. I think that's why I feel so hurt or forgotten when I don't hear from Jeremy for long stretches of time. While in college, we were almost inseperable and I really had a connection with him. I still think I do, but just not as strong as it once was. And maybe that's why I feel threatened, in some way, by Matt. I erronously see him as competition for Jeremy's time/friendship when I should view him as a new friend and someone to enjoy being around.

I don't like it when companies guilt you into giving donations by mailing items (address labels, greeting cards, calendars, etc) to you. However, I did get a granola/snack bar in the mail yesterday that was quite tasty.

I hooked up my new (read: boss's old) monitor at work today. It's no bigger than my old one (14") but it is amazingly clear and crisp. Hope to get my new (read: boss's old) computer by next week. My home computer has turned into a piece of crap relatively quickly. I'm getting a Mac when it's time for a new machine. The BSOD can become someone else's problem.

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[reject.livejournal.com]

my friend/ex-boss lynda is big on the four agreements. she always tried getting me to read it.

i never did.

[twicketface.livejournal.com]

It's a pretty easy read and has some good ideas in it. I don't think I could undergo the philosophical shift, but certainly something to work towards.

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[reject.livejournal.com]

hm.

i don't like things that you can only "work towards."

or maybe i do. i don't know.

[twicketface.livejournal.com]

It just seems like it doesn't take outside influence into account. One of the agreements is "Don't take anything personally", which I think is damn near impossible. You can cope with the fact that people have their own opinions, perceptions and such but I think it is denying emotions, which isn't a good thing. When things happen to me, I *have to* take them personally.

Maybe I'm misunderstanding what the author means.

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[reject.livejournal.com]

oh, i understand where you're coming from with the "work towards it" thing.

hm. i dunno. maybe i'll read them sometime.

from what lynda told me about the book, it mostly seemed like i'd read it and just go "no shit. you didn't have to put that in a book."

[twicketface.livejournal.com]

Kinda, but I almost think that sometimes you need to read the "No shit" stuff as a reminder.

Ok, delete "almost" and change "you" to "I". ;P

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[reject.livejournal.com]

heh.

does anyone call you murray?

[twicketface.livejournal.com]

Usually only when I post in a community.

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